The New M.E. Generation











{October 18, 2010}   Friendship Above All 21 – Emotional bed rest

I didn’t touch the subject any more during the night. Sometime late in the evening I woke up and it was dark. At first I was disoriented as to where I was until I saw Alex next to me.

He was sound asleep and looked so peaceful (thank goodness he wasn’t snoring!). I stayed in my position looking at him.

I don’t remember the last time I had shared a bed with a guy. And at that rate that this one is going, I’m not sure if it will happen again any time soon. Could I get used to it again? I guess…

My mind was thinking so many things I lost my sleep. I kept looking at Alex and felt like a jerk. He has been such a great guy with me. He has everything I’ve been looking for in a person, but my feelings are not the same as his.

I was still wired when, without thinking about it, I moved and placed myself very close to him. He didn’t wake up and I kept looking at him, until I started feeling sleepy again.

I don’t know why I did it. I’m emotionally tired of thinking things over too much. Maybe I just need to start improvising or follow my gut feelings.

Hey, perhaps I’ve found the way to attack my situation.

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