The New M.E. Generation

This guy and I did not email each other for a couple of days. As they progressed, I realized that as equally as he did, my old feelings for him started to resurface again as well.

I don’t remember the last time I felt this way. It could only equal when one falls in love for the first time. You don’t know exactly how it happened, it just did. It was one of those moments that you get a very pure and sincere feeling.

Then I got an email from him telling me he had a chance to speak to me the following day, so we set-up a time to do so.

The whole day at work I kept watching the clock and wishing for the hours to go by so I could get home. When he finally called I felt I was getting called the first time by a guy I had a crush with like in those early adolescent years. Yes, it was like feeling young again.

The conversation was brief and only wished we could have talked for more time.

A few more calls later I realized there was chemistry between us we couldn’t deny. Whatever we felt before was back and very much alive.

I felt I was walking on air, that there was someone in the distance that cared and loved me for exactly who I was; someone who would give anything to be with me if he could.

Yes, if he could, because, unfortunately, he is not free to do so. The circumstances of our present lives don’t allow us that.

I just wonder now, what was the circumstances back then that did not allow for us to stay together?

Ivan took me to a small but modern-looking bar. Because it was so early in the evening, we were the only ones there.

We ordered drinks and picked up the conversation from the one we had over the phone. We went over again on our reasons for giving online dating a try. It pretty much boiled down that finding a mate has been unsuccessful, and this was the only other option that will hopefully ‘save the day.’

I confessed to him that I was surprised he approached me. I asked him what made him do that.

“I was impressed by your beauty, and then after by your profile,” said he.

I was very flattered by his comment that he found me pretty. I know other guys have said this to me before. But, with him, it felt that he meant it.

“What was about my profile that you liked?” asked I.

“I’m not sure. I guess it was your honesty. All I know is that I wanted to meet you,” said he. “What about you? What made you reply to my email?”

“You know what? I’m not quite sure myself. There was something about your smile, the relaxed way that you looked seated in the stairs with your flip-flops that gave me a good vibe.”

We kept looking at each other and couldn’t stop smiling. After a while we were both at ease and enjoying our date. I was feeling that there was even chemistry between us.

I can’t deny that I felt an attraction to him from the moment I saw his pictures and in person. I really wanted to kiss him or get kissed by him. I even wanted to touch him or get closer to him somehow.

But I was scared that if I took the first step, he would take it the wrong way. I wanted to show him that he had made an impression on me, but not too obvious. I just did not want to mess up this date.

Hmm, wonder if he feels the same. I think he does.

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