The New M.E. Generation











It took me a while to get over this whole experience, but I managed to do it, including overcoming the emotional part.

It was a good thing that I did because wherever I thought about it, I was able to think or talk about it more objectively.

As more time went by, I moved away from the blame game and concluded that it was an unfortunate incident how it all turned out.

I say this because, in essence, he was a very nice guy and treated me well. He was one of the few that had potential of having something going for.

But ending things in a bad note is not how I like to do things. It has been some years already and have been contemplating if it would be a good idea to approach him and clear things out.

No, I’ll just drop it. Sometimes it’s just better to let things stay as they are. If I need to do something about it, I will know. How? Hmmm, I will know…



‘It’s not that,’ responded Ivan to my text, ‘I just have a lot of work.’

‘Whatever,’ I responded.

I didn’t care at that point that I never spoke, saw or had any contact of him. It has been one disappointing experience with men right after the other and just wanted to get over it.

I was trying not to get mad or anything, at him or this first online date. I just wanted to end it quickly without much thought.

Maybe if I pretended this whole meeting never happened or moved on right away, I would not get any emotional unrest.

In a certain manner that’s what happened. After knowing so many guys that, in the end, turned into nothing, it doesn’t get to hurt you anymore nor take it personally.

Is it they or me that is doing something wrong here? I’m not dwelling on it. It’s time to live and learn, and keep going forward.

And just when I was doing a mental ‘wrap up’ of Ivan, unbelievably, but yes, he called.

Wow, never thought that such a short, no-nonsense, to the point text message would have such an effect on him. And for someone who never contacted me for anything, this sure is a first.



et cetera