The New M.E. Generation











It took me a while to get over this whole experience, but I managed to do it, including overcoming the emotional part.

It was a good thing that I did because wherever I thought about it, I was able to think or talk about it more objectively.

As more time went by, I moved away from the blame game and concluded that it was an unfortunate incident how it all turned out.

I say this because, in essence, he was a very nice guy and treated me well. He was one of the few that had potential of having something going for.

But ending things in a bad note is not how I like to do things. It has been some years already and have been contemplating if it would be a good idea to approach him and clear things out.

No, I’ll just drop it. Sometimes it’s just better to let things stay as they are. If I need to do something about it, I will know. How? Hmmm, I will know…

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Alex gave me his phone number and let it up to me to make the first call whenever I felt I was ready to, which I preferred. In the past I have been the one who gave out the number, and the guys would either call me right away, or never called at all.

Either way, it was irritating to me, but probably the second one is worst. With the first you know they’re interesting (in whatever level that may be), but calling right away might also make them look desperate (or extremely horny). Not making the call makes them look like total jackasses. If you are not interested, why ask for the number? I mean, couldn’t you figure that out beforehand?

So, when am I making the call? Hmm, now I’m freaking out. Don’t know why, all is going the way I’ve wanted to. Is it ‘the voice thing’ or maybe the fact that I finally met a guy who has a lot of potential?

All I can say is that I’m very nervous. I haven’t had a relationship with a guy since my separation. I don’t know how it feels to have a relationship any more, to have a man I can call my own. And I still haven’t learned what I am supposed to do if that ever happened again.

I am afraid to make the call because I feel I will handle it all wrong. I am scared to give myself the chance to open my heart to someone else and experience something I used to know how good it felt.



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