The New M.E. Generation

‘So I guess you wouldn’t be interested in meeting me? Seems that your previous experiences weren’t good’, read his message.

For being written at such an early morning time, the depth of the content surprised me. I think any other guy would have already suspended communication.

But, above all, it was what he questioned that hit me. I know he meant the younger men, but has there been someone really worth remembering?

My mind went blank right away thinking on this.

Yes, that’s how bad these relationships have been. There may have been positives on them, but it’s not really something that I would share with others, not even for gossip or as a learning lesson.

I also know each person deserves a break and be treated differently, without using other people as comparison to decipher them.

And he approached me, which is totally different from me chasing others in the past.

But, again, is this worth engaging at, even via emails?

‘It is not if I want to meet you or not, but whether it’s worth doing it. I guess we will never know until we go out’, replied I.

I sent the message and sometime later I regretted what I said. I checked my message and he hadn’t responded to it.

‘Disregard what I said before. It sounds as if I was imposing on you. Seeing each other depends if we both feel comfortable in doing so. I’m totally fine if it doesn’t happen’.

I hate to admit that I have a curiosity to meet him, but it’s probably more for the ‘thrill of the adventure’, which in my world has always led to crash and burn.

So, am I taking the jump or not?

Johann and I kept corresponding by email and it was just like when we used to write each other, except we didn’t had to buy stamps or wait endlessly for the next envelope to arrive.

It’s great to think how much technology has allowed for people to reconnect so, why not take it to the next level?

‘Is there any way we can actually talk, either via the computer or by phone?’ I asked him on my email. ‘It would be great to hear your voice again and seeing you, even better.’

He replied that as much as he wanted to do so online, his personal situation made it impossible, but going mobile was an option. He was going to try to find a day and time and would let me know.

About two weeks later he wrote saying he was going to call me on a Saturday morning my time.

I was so excited about talking to him I woke up early that Saturday just to make sure I wouldn’t miss his call.

When the time came, I sat next to the phone and even plugged it to make sure the battery would he charged.

At exactly the time he said he would call, he did.

“Hi Emma, it’s me, Johann.”

“Oh, my, I can’t believe I’m talking to you…” I got very emotional and chocked to the point tears were coming down my eyes, and almost couldn’t talk.

I have gone through so much, I had forgotten how really much he was part of my life and had meant to me.

I needed this phone call so badly and couldn’t have happened at a better time.

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