The New M.E. Generation

“I will level with you. I’m not here to play games. I’ve had met other young guys in the past and ended up getting involved in some way with them for the wrong reasons. I know why I did it and don’t regret it.

What I am trying to say is that I’m in a point of my life that if I’m with a guy, it is because we’re both in a committed relationship.

I could have fun with you and not care about tomorrow, but I’m tired of getting hurt and I will not do that to you either.

I probably sound corny, maybe melodramatic, or whatever else in between. But this is where I stand today.”

“Sounds to me like some of those guys were total a-holes,” said Jesse.

“You don’t want to know, believe me. You’re too young and nice to even go there. Besides, it’s irrelevant at this point. I’ve lived and learned and can only forge ahead.”

“Well, I appreciate your sincerity. You don’t get that every day.”

Shortly after the band resumed playing, everyone there continued with their dancing and partying. Jesse stayed at my side and the other guy stayed close to Dina.

Hmm, what’s the deal with that? I thought she had dismissed that one too.

About 3-4 days later I called Christian. It was around 7pm in the evening which I thought was a descent time to do, considering he was probably done with work and already at home.

But he didn’t answer the call and it went to voicemail. It was disappointing, but understandable. If I see an incoming call with a number I don’t recognize or doesn’t list the caller, I don’t answer it.

I could have left a message but decided not to. What was I supposed to say? ‘Hey it’s the girl you gave the number to at the bar’? I don’t know about you, but it would have sounded sort of corny when I don’t recall giving him my name.

So what am I supposed to do now? Should I call him back again in a couple of hours? What if he decides to call back this missed call? It’s a possibility but, honestly, I don’t think that will happen.

I’m sitting at my sofa holding my mobile with my hand, contemplating what to do here.

No, I don’t feel like calling again in the same night. I don’t want to come across as desperate, a stalker or anything else in between.

I decided to call back again the next day at a later time during the evening. If he doesn’t answer, I will not leave a message.

After that, I think I will give it a third try. If no result, I will make a decision to either desist all together or let a few days go by and try again.

So let’s wait and see what happens tomorrow.

et cetera