A few more months later, Jeffrey decided to go back home for good. I don’t remember how it all happened, but I believe he mentioned he was leaving again and did not know when he would return.
It did not take me by surprise. I knew it was coming. In a previous conversation, he had said he was very distant from his spouse and couldn’t handle the situation any longer. On top of that, he was so desperate, he just wanted to ‘drop everything’ and simply leave.
And he did. He left all his material possessions ‘untouched,’ meaning he didn’t sell them or anything. He left that for his ‘significant other’ to deal with it. Sounds to me he ‘snapped’ one day and simply decided to leave immediately.
And after some time after his departure, he announced he was not coming back. Not another surprise. He ran away, yet again, but for the last time.
Some months later he sent me an email saying he was making a quick stop in ‘the city’ and asked for my number. He wanted to see me, but wasn’t sure if he would have the chance.
I knew it wouldn’t happen, so I didn’t make the effort of contacting him. I was right, nothing happened. He went back home and we haven’t made contact ever since.
Do I still hear from him? Sometimes I do, on and off, of course, online. Later on I did learn he finally got divorced and was happy.
Happy. Hmm, let me think this one over. Better? Probably. Entirely happy? Don’t think so.
I’ve seen pictures of him and he physically looks very good. But in some I can still see the pain of the life he’s lived and left behind.
One thing I’ve surely learned from my experience is that you may run away from all your past. But your demons, unless you confront then face forward, they will run back to hunt you sooner or later.
But I’m hopeful for him. I think he will overcome everything, but, when? That’s not up to me to provide any longer.
This cougar has served her time with this guy.
Do I want to be a cougar again? Don’t know. For now I’ll just keep on roaming until my next ‘catch’ occurs.
The New M.E. Generation 